findings

just had my first paper. i would say it's ok. if i have known how to do second order differential equations and planar vectors, i think i could have gotten around 80+ 90%? for this paper? but i just don't know. so i optimistically predict this paper to be about ~60%? this is only the first. tmrw's gonna be harder. i just need to get 3 questions right, which make up to about ~35%, to pass rightfully. (somehow i shouldn't be looking to just pass right? but this is for me for now. next year. i will aim to score full marks like usual. =/)

i was really stressed and burnt out last night. i just couldn't do anymore math problems anymore. total exhaustion.

while thinking and staring into spaces yesterday, and discriminating about mathematicians, i had some conclusion about mathematicians:

i wonder what the math lecturers in imperial do other than teaching?
u see, scientist and engineers are always busy with researches, findings and engineering new things. so how about mathematicians?!
they read mathematical theories, and read theories. then they try to come up with their own theories. if fail, they continue to read and study theories. they'll then read others' theories and try to prove them wrong (cos maybe they don't understand them). when they still fail to do so, they read and study theories again. meanwhile in their free time, they play with calculators, fix all the spoilt calculators, check all the calculators in all department are working well for exams, and to check with suppliers with cheaper calculators. oops. =X i wonder if some idiot one day will realise that actually ∫ is not the symbol for integration and ∑ not the symbol for summation. =/

i still remember i used to always do nothing, relax and sleep early the day/night before any math paper so i will have a 'refresh' mind the next day. i wish this day will come again.