no more future.

yes. i just managed to check my results. and yes. it is very bad. this is really heart breaking. i didn't expect it to be THIS BAD. i thought i would be lowest a second lower. but now, i dont even know what range this mark falls into. 53% WHAT THE FUCK. yes. i've lost all my motivation and aspirations. all the goals i have when i graduate are all gone with such a grade at the first year. will i still get my first class end of my fourth year? i doubt so. i still cant believe this. im so screwed. fucking electronics.

technical mishap.

guess what!? FACEBOOK IS DOWN!!! :((((( bah.

part (and parcel) of life.

yup. mr tong have fun in melbourne huh. seriously i think the next time i'll see u will be 2012 nov/dec? assuming i still doesn't have money to go melb and u not going to london. we'll see how then!

anyways this week was reallllllly fast. it just past. and it marked the 4th week of my vacation attachment. i just did some calculation, i think i can start clearing leave/taking MCs after first week of sept, and some leave in parts of august. this attachment have been quite fulfilling till now. next year, i doubt i'll be back for attachment. i want to see THE WORLD MORE! yes.

have been really tight on budget this 3 months, and 3 more years to come. can we spend less money when we eat out?! im gonna stay onboard everyday till after dinner. =/

cool, it's august! means national day! means 2 more months and back to studyyy. =/

get onto da dance floor.

last night was good. but just drank a LITTLE too much. didnt use the free drinks at all. long island sucks. hersey martini sucks. nice apple shooters. not even a step on the dance floor. missed summer rain. i was the extra among the couples. it was fun though. damn fun. really. 5 makes a good number. :)

significant bit.

despite my super busy schedule, i decided to enter this entry.

today after work, routinely, i took the bus from changi naval base to tanah merah station then to bedok station. when i was walking towards the bus interchange, i heard a weak voice calling "boy come here". i turned around and took a glance and saw this man in the wheelchair. i wasn't sure if he was calling anyone, so i turned away until i heard him calling again. when i looked at him, i saw him waving at me asking me to go over. very shocked. i walked towards him. he asked me if i can help him. then he asked if i can push him to the toilet at the mrt station. at that moment, i was really shocked for some reason, but of course i agreed. so after that which pushing him back from the toilet, he asked if i was rushing for time, i said no. and he humbly asked if i can push him to the hawker center and help him buy dinner. i bought him dinner, and then rushed home.

it was quite an abrupt goodbye, but he was really thanking me so much. at that moment, something really hit me quite hard. a simple act for an able-bodied young man like me could actually mean so much to those who are less fortunate.

that was the most meaningful 30 minutes of my life. i have a vision for tomorrow.

those were the past.

just finished my osim triathlon. and i think it was quite bad. as in the swim. it's been a long time since i struggled in swimming, other than the fact that i havent been swimming for a long time.

i'm getting fat. i can feel it. i can feel the 'spare tyre' i have for my bike. not a 12.5 mm one. it's those 25 mm kind. shit.

i got a DESDERI 2 lens camera. i wanted a 4 lens one. but anyways it's a gift, so im loving it! :)

this coming week gonna be a tough week. with 4 understudy duties, ippt, polo and sentosa! :) no driving for quite some time. im so busy. =/

life.

time for a change? be appreciative.

still a seedling.

it's been more than a week since i returned to this sunny island.

i must say, everyday is eventful. everyday is different. and it's been less than 2 weeks and i can almost conclude that this summer is a learning period. ALOT TO LEARN.

first. polo. i've been joining the NUS canoe polo team for the past week. and it is INTENSIVE. me, not know most people, crashing their sessions really made me feel very awkward at times. being still new to this sport, im not must contribution to the team. but i think im almost with the year ones? but there is still so much more to learn. but they're equipment are really at the extremes. -.-

next. ship life. yes. have i told you guys that i've been posted to the LANDING SHIP TANK! LST in short. yes. the LARGEST ship in the Navy. im given a cabin of 4 beds all by MYSELF. it's feels like a hotel. it has an attached heads (toilet), and a PC in the room. the ship has a officer dining room and a giant wardroom. :) did i mention a gym too! this is the first time im staying so comfortably onboard a ship. but life isn't that easy. since im still so new to the ship, im have ALOT more to learn. i have till end of this month for my assessment to be qualified to be a Duty officer onboard.

last. driving. yes. today was my second lesson in this entire year. and i think this is one of the worst. it started out from kovan, and the instructor asked me to drive to ubi. for not learning to drive for more than a year, it was REALL tough. still a long way to go.

anyways, all these 3 things have the same effect on me. new. im still new to it. and everytime my instructor/seniors advise me about some stuff, i always look as though im really bad at it. really bad. u know those kind of advise as though they are 'scolding' you. that feeling really suck. and it makes me really really really want to work so much harder to improve. but i dont really have the time and it's been a really tough week.

here's a summary of my week:

monday, reported to tuas. then they told me that im posted to changi -.- but lucky they asked me report the next day.

tuesday, SAF day. reported to ship. knowing it's SAF day, means half day. but being new to the ship, i decided to stay over to learn more about the ship.

wednesday, normal routine. work onboard. left around 5, then after that went to NUS for polo trg at 9 - 11.15 pm. dead shag. took a cab home. slept at 1?

thursday, woke up at 5 to go to work. stay over to under study duty.

friday, sunday routine: means off for the entire ship. but my direct superior is on duty, so i have to understudy. till 4.30? but luckily he sent me home. then driving from 6.50pm to half 8. then home sweet home.

oh ya, btw, today after my driving at kovan. i got a craving for sugar cane juice. then when i was at the stall, the guy called me UNCLE!!!!! WTH. i didn't know it would hit me quite hard. maybe it's because that fellow is probably around my age, and he called me uncle. wth. what a way to end the week.

bah. im craving for supper now but no one's free. damn.