so near, yet so far.

it's gonna be over in four days, last four days in the library. somehow i dont feel like studying at all. at the back of my brain, im panicking like some idiot, i still need to finish learning 2 courses in the next 2 days? yet i havent finish the first one, not even half of it. 

must be the post birthday mood. even though i didnt really had lots of fun, actually nothing fun at all. but i think im kinda used to it. for the past 10 years (at least i think). birthdays are always camps/exams/holidays/duties. i still remember j1, it was during OAC june camp, what more can i describe. j2 was during OAC june camp too, but this time i was the instructor. then i was under lots of pressure. next was confined in camp. last year was duty/sailing. this year exam. next year too. so actually birthday is no longer a big deal to me eh? (don't worry im not emo-ing) 

exams ending soon, yet i feel as though it is still so far away. home is so near, yet so far. 

i don't like this feeling at all. what is this feeling? (please click here)

btw i just watch p.s. i love you. bitter sweet romance.

P.S. Guess what.