trying too hard. too hard.

sometimes i wonder. is that true?

everytime after some event that suppose to be joyous, i dont really feel it. why?

i realised i always think too much. read too much into things. i dont like this feeling.

i want to break free.

i just talked to my boss regarding my leave plan. and sadly it's totally not according to what i've planned. i still have 6 more duties to go before i leave. 5 in sept, one of the week i have THREE! bah. but i still dont hate the navy yet. i just want to break free.

total sian-ness. cant play polo. cant do climbing. cant life weights. cant run long distance. totally useless. im really a handicap now. give me back me hands!!!

i need a getaway. anyone up for it? i want to go somewhere for a getaway. getaway.