re-do and un-do.

i cant believe this. im leaving in about 50 hours time. and i have yet to finish packing. i dunno how to pack this time. seems that i have too much clothes to bring back/over/there. i should have left more clothes there.

and im not emo-ing. i am just SO NOT PREPARED AT ALL. all there are just happening too fast. too furious. all i could do was to stand there, trying to catch up with time.

it still doesn't feel like im leaving again. it feels as though im staying here for good. no longer the excitement like last year. what is this feeling? my room is still in a BIG mess. it feels that i've been back for only a month. still so many things i wanted to do before i came back, undone. unfulfilled. i need more baggage limit! i need more time!