dreadfulness.

week 5 is coming to an end. and i SERIOUSLY cant wait for end of week 11 to come. end of this autumn it will be. and it shall be 1 week of skiing then! but looking of that pile of work/notes/stuff behind me. i really dread to go sch everyday. i really force myself to go every lecture and study group, to do all the work. this year i told myself it's different. i will not be complacent like last year again. i put in every effort to understand everything now. but this is really very tiring. very.

please God, give me some strength to move on. i see all my friends in US, UK, Aus, NZ, France, Switz etc all having fun everytime. i do have fun sometimes but most of it time, i dont have a life. other than school, it's polo. but i must say polo really makes my feel de-stressed, and hanging out with the polo peeps at bars is simply enjoyable.

oh well. this is life. weighing between having fun now and getting my first class. both affects my future greatly. i want to have fun because this is probably the last time i can enjoy fun at such young age, but i really need my first class to get a better pay scheme in the forces next time. bah.